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27 lines
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# filename: reddit_joel_2025-02-23_01.yaml
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- id: 2025-02-23_01
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timestamp: "2025-02-23T08:55:43Z"
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platform: "Reddit"
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subreddit: "r/NarcissisticAbuse"
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thread_title: "I Thought Breaking Up Would Free Me. Why Do I Feel So Lost?"
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post_type: "OP"
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user: "u/Lopsided_Scheme_4927"
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suspected_identity: "Joel Johnson"
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confidence: "medium"
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content: |
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I spent a year and a half in a relationship that made me question my reality. I finally walked away, thinking I’d feel free, but instead, I’m stuck with unexpected emotions: grief, self-doubt, even moments of missing him.
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Meanwhile, he moves on like nothing happened. Actually, he created a parallel delusional world, where is the victim, where he’s justified, and he’s some sort of visionary. He still has his friends, his confidence, his social energy. And I’m here, struggling to reconnect with myself. It makes no sense and seems so unfair. I know the relationship was toxic. I know he invalidated me, dismissed my feelings, twisted reality and made me doubt myself. And yet, there’s this lingering sadness.
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Why does it feel like he gets to walk away unbothered while I’m left picking up the pieces? I don’t want him back, but I hate that he still occupies so much space in my mind. It seems I’m left feeling all the pain he’s determined not to feel.
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Has anyone else felt this way after leaving a toxic or narcissistic relationship? How did you deal with it? What actually helped you move forward?
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context_notes: |
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The language here mirrors known patterns from Joel’s writing: passive self-victimization, obsession with the perception of emotional asymmetry, and weaponized introspection.
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The use of phrases like “parallel delusional world,” “some sort of visionary,” and “twisted reality” is consistent with Joel’s rhetorical style, especially in his indirect attempts to reframe his own abusive behavior through projection. The account name “Lopsided_Scheme_4927” itself may be a subtle reference to perceived imbalances in narrative control.
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Post is marked NSFW possibly to avoid indexing, while still reaching the r/NarcissisticAbuse community.
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captured_by: "Mark R. Havens"
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file: "screenshots/2025-02-23_01.png"
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tags: [sockpuppet, narcissistic-abuse, identity-obfuscation, projection, Joel-Johnson]
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